November 15, 2014

I am going to give some new effort to blogging...

I'm never sure anyone actually reads 97% or more of the blogs floating around us but this little corner of the Universe will be a new attempt to journal in public toward increasing my understanding of what I'm doing in this world--transparently--and hopefully occasionally communicating some of this to those interested.

I continue to struggle with basic things. I continue to hope for better days ahead. I wrestle with locating myself in the conversation around where Art interfaces with Climate Change: Ecosophy.

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estaferallah

i am the one who is at fault here.
i am the one who has refused to surrender.

it is i. i.
i am the one who has been terrified.

terrified of love,
of being loved, and of loving. i.

i am the one pushing you away
as hard as i can push. i.

i am the one
stopping your heart from living inside me

over and over and over again
i. i. i.

i am the one saying ‘but you have to earn it’
i. i. i.

but what does that i-game
have to do with love?

what does that i-game
have to do with love?

and who is writing these words?
who is writing these words now?

who’s voice is this?
it cannot be i.

i would never admit these things

i is clever and right
i is brilliant and in control

i has all the answers
so how can this be i writing?

none of this is rational
none of this makes any sense

and yet these feet are buzzing with life
and this heart is soft and full and open

and these tears are real

and this body open

so alive
so what?

so what is God asking then?
what is God asking? just to love

and to hell with what i thinks?
just to take all the blame

and accept completely?
it seems God is asking just that, yes.

it seems God is asking just that.
because if i was deep enough

if i was deep enough with Love,
i would touch you

and I and you would disappear completely

I want to put a plug in for my friend Sterlin Harjo's new film: This May Be the Last Time

http://www.thismaybethelasttime.com/#preorder

Also, I'm proud to be associated with Mark Kuykendall and his wife, Lindsey Neal Kuykendall and their rapidly growing lable: Unknown Tone Records:

http://unknowntone.com/

On Top

My Sufi teacher, the venerable Shaikha Rahima Sweeney PhD. has asked me to focus on "estaferallah" as a new focused practice because I've been beating myself up. I am working with this "Holy Name" constantly toward diminishing my self-recrimination.

I am working on The Mouth of the Tao series again. I'm searching to connect with my work in a new and more personal way. I've been distracted by doubt and many other things and am working to renew my focus. Much of good painting is seeing. Much of seeing is being empty. Much of being empty is practice.

Saturday, November 15, 2014